I am not only going through physical pain but also emotional stuff too. And its tearing me apart.
I love to read. Its my life’s passion. I got a shit education in school and this passion fills the gap. I have experienced such joy from reading that its something I cannot accurately put into words.
Since being diagnosed with cancer and having my pain intensify, I have lost my ability to concentrate on a book. I am devastated. Books are my sole comfort and my soul comfort. I have amassed quite the collection. And yet I cannot read.
I have amassed an incredible amount of eBooks as well. Cant concentrate.
I feel like I lost a part of me. Its like the surgeon told me I had cancer and then kicked me figuratively so I couldn’t read.
I keep trying though. Dear God do I keep trying. The farthest I have been able to go is page 76 in an eBook. I couldn’t go any farther.
I have tried again. I am at page 45 of my current book. I hope and pray that I can finish it. It would make me feel so much better about myself.